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ok wow sorry [Nov. 21st, 2005|09:14 am]
[mood |pissed offpissed off]
[music |system of a down]

ok so i get up at 8:00 on MY thanksgigving break trying to finish my portfolio and what happens....
i'll tell you
frist they refuse to open the doors until exactly 9:00
then i finally am allowed in the damn building so i try and log onto a computer.
i can't
after trying three times i decide to go ask a lady why its not working and she replies
"you have a fine."
i look at her perfect old face and it comes to me that i want to bitch slap it!!!!!
oh how pissed i am
i haven't been into a library in 2 years and she says i have an $8 fine!!! how?!?!?!
then i realize my mother is the one to blame. she checked out 2 books that were 3 months late.
so i suck it up and pay the damn fine.
i sit down now finally ready to start my project and get it over with.
i log on
i stick in my flash drive and no lite no flashy thing pops up and tells me i have new hardware
so i try it again
and again
then i say i give up so i walk over to the "nice lady again" and ask her and she says "no one is allowed to use those drives. i'd try kinko's"
right now i am so desperatly wanting to get up scream and hit someone until i get my way. and i am so pissed it not even funny.

the only good thing about today is that i get to watch the devil's reject at cody's sometime later today.
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i hate being taged [Sep. 18th, 2005|10:19 pm]
i refuse to do this !!!! grrr arg! :rebel::rebel:
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ouizy thing from amanda [Sep. 7th, 2005|11:01 pm]
this is so awesome you have to do it!!!!!

1. Go here.
2. Pass it on.
my answersCollapse )
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(no subject) [Sep. 7th, 2005|12:45 am]
YAY! NEW THEME. Everything was made by me including icon and i took a non blurry pic of can can dancers and made it look like an absinthe trip.
"trippin' on the green fairy"
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(no subject) [Sep. 5th, 2005|01:21 pm]
[mood |ecstaticecstatic]
[music |korn]

i am so glad none of our family is dead!!!! we heard from our family in biloxi and they are all fine and as of yesterday they have power and phone so yea its all good currently.
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a slight glimmer of hope [Aug. 30th, 2005|06:56 pm]
[mood |blankso scared i have no emotion]
[music |NONE]

well, we haven't heard from any of our family members so far. my great uncle tommy and great anut kathy called my aunt and said they finally made it out to baton rouge(normally a 3 hr drive from new orleans) after 15 hours. its good to know they are alive. i feel so aweful about all this its making me sick. what do i do? i try to cry and its just not working i have never felt so scared before. its a different kinda scared. now i know a slivier of what my mother went through during camil.
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no more [Aug. 28th, 2005|10:57 pm]
[mood |sadafraid of loosing family]
[music |korn]

i can't seem to do anything right. i guess thats something i have to deal with. guilt is not what i feel, pain is. i wish i could make it all go away. i know thats impossible. everything hurts and i just don't know what to do. i think i would do better with no emotion. if you have no emotion you can't get hurt. you can't care. you can't love. maybe this is the best thing for me. i just need to through myself into my work. put all my efforts into getting my job done and learn as much as i can while doing it. theatre is the on true thing that i can count on in my life and it will be the one true thing i stick with. it is me life. it consumes me. i am excited to move it will give me a easy way to change, because frankly i'm excited to. i've lived here for 14 out of my 16 years and i'm over it ready to move on to better things. i'm afriad now really afraid. our family lost half of its people to camil we can't loose anymore to katrina. i write through tears for my uncles and cousins, i have so much family that wont leave. why do they have to be stubern barretts? why? i have friends back to being friends. i can't help but feel overwellemed by this. i know its a good thing, but i think they may be taking it to fast. i want them to be at a stable place. i need some friends that will never blow me off. i need people who at least act like they care. BAN AGNST!!!! i need guideice. i dought it will ever come i hope i don't piss anyone off. i hope everyone can understand. why do i always run from anything thats good? i cn't take it. i hope everything will work its self out for the good. if it doesn't it might kill me. it hurts to smile at someone and they look at you with such great hate. did i hurt you that badly? what did i do? if you tell me i could try in fix it. i'm sorry . why does life alway do this to me? how can i make life better? i'm a mature teen i need to get over my self! i can't atke this i'm going to call my uncle tommy and make sure i get to say good bye incase its the last time i get to. night.
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(no subject) [Aug. 10th, 2005|09:37 pm]
budda just totally wrote this about me....

1. you were totally in girl scouts with me back in elementary school
2. rocky horror picture show
3. peep-flavored
4. kitties lick their own poop chutes
5. your birthday party in atl
6. meow meows
7. have you ever tried tilapia?

1. Reply with your name and I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie/book/fictional character/SOMETHING reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of pudding to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me. Well, maybe just me.
5. I'll tell you my favorite memory of you, should I have one yet.
6. I'll tell you what animal or plant you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written.
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LOT'S O' EXCITEMENT [Aug. 8th, 2005|09:03 pm]
[mood |cheerfuli proved everyone wrong!!!!!!]
[music |korn]

ok so i found out alot about drama today with my meeting and it was so rad. yes, i used the word rad. ok so i'm unoffically vice president of drama club wich makes me happy!!! i am also HEAD stage manager for Take it easy!!! i'm so excited and then i talked to mr. p and he said i could direct a one act in a night of one acts. also i finally found out what play were doing for competion. we are re-modifying the ransom of red cheif by o'henry and were going to call it the kid ransom. so i'm excited about that. i have to come up with a play to do for my one act any ideas......no oh well!!! i went to barns and noble and it made me happy and i found the perfect formal dress but it doesn't match my hair so that makes me sad .... oh well i gots homework to do. nighty night.
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FREEDOM!!!! [Jul. 30th, 2005|11:07 pm]
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